There is a saying : 'Dugaan ke atas seeorang itu adalah kehidupan yang mampu ditanggung olehnya'. (The life lessons are to those who can bear.)

I was very motivated in adventures and progress. There were so many things i want to achieve in this lifetime. I believed in my potentials. I believed in creating opportunities. I had faith in the good in people and life. But now, the spirit had left me. I have mentioned about this somewhere else, about a year ago. It has regress further since. I became could not care less.

I saw this deterioration within my awareness. I just stood still and let it be. There were collaterals along the way. Worldly, physically and spiritually..

The graph shows 2 curves : Red - the actual awareness, Black - the current being. Would there be any salvation? Only time shall tell.